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Got to go for my 'rural posting', from Tuesday, for a month.
Got to stay there because if not, the university can fail you.
Not sure if it's going to be any good; from all I've heard, half of the group does the cooking, and the other half does the doctor work. I'm not very good at cooking, so may have to opt for the latter.

I'm sure there'll be no way to get online from there, though. That's the idea when you say 'rural'. :-) Ah well... a month will pass quickly, and the rest after will be so much the sweeter... :-)

Til the next time... :-)

Now That It's Fallen Apart (9 & 10 / 2 / 8)

Verse:

I sit and muse for awhile
Remembering only the best
Laughter, love, a thousand smiles
Sweetness unmarred by regrets


Bridge:

And as the music box I bought you plays the song we shared
I’ll focus on the times you cared instead of what we never had
It matters not today and really there’s no reason to be sad……


Chorus:

‘Cos our love
It melts like the snow on the ground where I wrote your name
Nothing’s changed
And our dreams
They fade like the steam on the window where I traced our hearts
Now that it’s fallen apart / now that we’ve chosen to part


- Copyright 2008 Evelyn Tai -

You Don't Have To Love Me Anymore (9/11/7)

Verse 1:

1. You don’t have to love me anymore
2. There’s nothing left we can restore / to wait here for / to cling on for
3. The castles we built in love and war
4. Crumble in the waves on the shore)


Prechorus 1:

Giving up isn’t always the loser’s part
Sometimes lovers need a new start
The pain you feel when you pull out that dart
Paves the way for a healing heart


Verse 2:

1. You don’t have to hold me anymore
2. I don’t want our love to be a chore
3. The dreams we shared, the fruit it bore …
4. Fragmented pieces on the shore / Crushed and scattered on the shore / Nothing left but debris on the shore / Desolate rubble on the shore / Scattered in the wind on the shore


Prechorus 2:

Giving up isn’t always the loser’s part
Sometimes lovers need a fresh start
There’ll come a time when you look for/can’t see the scar/hurt mark
When you find you’ve got a brand new heart


Variations on end ...

1. You don’t have to love me anymore
2. I don't want our love to be a chore
3. The castles we built in love and war
4. Crumble in the waves as nerves are rubbed raw / as old quarrels soar? /
Crumble in the dust as the waves of strife soar /
Crumble as old wounds are rubbed raw /
Crumble in the wind as the feuding waves roar


- Copyright 2007 Evelyn Tai -

Hello! Welcome... :- ) Thank you for dropping by... :-)

Sorry there are so few songs up... I've got lots more lyrics, but not enough time to upload them all... will keep uploading them when I can... so if you have the patience, come back again :-)

Til next time! :-)

-Evelyn-

Nick 3rd Song (28/9/7 - 19/10/7)

Verse:

I sit here alone, pressing my heart, wishing it were made of stone
I lie here in bed, embracing the dark, praying that you’ll come home
And every day, takes you further away, and there’s nothing I can say


Chorus:

I don’t know where you go, when you turn away from me
I don’t know what you see, when you escape reality
I don’t know what i need to fulfill your fantasy
Is it such a misdeed, to want you here with me/ I don’t know what I should be to keep you here with me


(After chorus?):
All I know is that I love you, and I want to follow/be with you
I want to prove my love is true, I want to die for you


Bridge:
And I don’t understand why you leave
Gonna hold on til the end, gonna swallow my grief?
And I’ll be waiting, come what may
For your return, someday


- Copyright 2007 Evelyn Tai -

Breaking My Heart / All Over Again (16, 25-9-7)

Verse 1:

Why do I let you hurt me time and time again
Why can’t I find a remedy to deal with this pain
Why is this love an ecstasy that ravages my brain
Why does my vivid memory keep driving me insane?


Chorus:

Do you know when you go you steal the magic from my soul…?
Can’t you see that it’s me who’s finally lost control…?
And as I cry, say goodbye, I wonder why I can’t get off this (train ?)
You’re breaking my heart all over again
(Or variant of last line “And as I cry, say goodbye, I wonder why I can never make you see…
You’re everything to me” – perhaps this will be neater)


Verse 2:

Why do I always fail to see the value of restraint
Why can’t I change reality – this time it’s gonna rain
Why must I suffer silently when only I/thoughts/shadows remain / blame remains
Why does my every melody end with a sad refrain


Bridge:
Sometimes I wish I’d never met you
Sometimes I wish I’d never loved you
I miss you – although I say I don’t need you
I miss you – although I say I don’t love you


Variants, perhaps for ending:
You’re taking my life, all over again.
Leaving me in the dark, all over again.
I’m falling apart, all over again.
You’re leaving me lost, all over again…


End:
You were everything to me.
Stop, stop the hurt…

…..

- Copyright 2007 Evelyn Tai -

(I don’t have a song title yet…)(13-8-7)

Verse:

Someone once told me ‘Love lasts forever’
Do you believe it’s true
What makes me think of leaving, I’m starting to wonder
I do believe it’s you


Prechorus:

It started so well, so long ago
But there’re some things that everybody knows…


Chorus:

A plant without the sun will never grow
A wick without a flame, will never glow
It’s hard for us to love with bitter souls
Neglect can make the warmest heart turn cold…


- Copyright 2007 Evelyn Tai -

(Looking For A) Superhero (24-4-7)

Verse 1:


Pick up the paper when you buy the drinks and don’t forget

Sunday’s the day to pay the breadman

And while you’re about it why not see what you can do about that door

It’s squeaking again


Prechorus 1:

So many tasks they all pile up, sometimes I get a little confused

But when I ask you say, ‘Don’t interrupt’ and I feel like I’m hardly any use


Chorus:

Looking for a superhero someone who will hear my cry for help

And who will come flying in

Someone who’s human just like me, and who understands

Who will lend a helping hand

Looking for a superhero someone who will hear my cry for help

And who will come flying in

Someone a little stronger than me, who will be a friend

Who will give not demand


Verse 2:

Pass me the paper and a bag of chips and make it quick

You know I hate to sit here waiting

And don’t you forget to make that call - you should’ve known I’d ring in sick

Now don’t you go complaining again


Prechorus 2:

So many tasks they all pile up, sometimes I get a little confused

But when I ask you say, ‘Don’t interrupt’ – Sometimes I wonder if I’m being used….


Lyrics and music: Evelyn Tai
- Copyright 2007. Evelyn Tai -


Note: This is a good song. When I look at it, I remember being sick, and spending time with my (now ex-) boyfriend. I asked him if he could help me get a drink of water from the kitchen, and he said no, he was lazy. I burst into tears. Ok, end of story for now...

Brothers, Sisters; Hand In Hand (for CF camp 05)

Verse 1:

I take your hand, I smile at you

I don’t know who you are

Is this the start of a friendship new

A journey that’ll take us far


Chorus:

Brothers, sisters; hand in hand,

Let’s join our hearts, and take a stand

United in Christ we’ll conquer this land

Each of us is part of God’s plan

Lord give us eyes to see, and ears to hear

The bleeding hearts, the unshed tears

Jesus help us to care, to hold them dear

Thru’ suffering teach us to feel their fears

So we’ll reach out and draw them near….


Verse 2:

Meeting with you never fails to make my day

Your life has taught me much

And if I stray from the way, you could be the one to pray

You have that loving touch


- Copyright 2005 Evelyn Tai -

Long Distance Call (18/5/5)

Verse:

Wish I didn’t have to go back

To that life I’ve been living without you now

The days pass like my dreamless nights

And I’m startin to see that without you I am


Chorus:

Lonely, and I’m hardly ever happy

‘Cos it seems that all I get from you

Is a long-distance call and a couple of ‘I love you’s

Waitin’, it feels like I’m wastin’ my time

Just lettin’ everybody pass me by

But I can’t help myself ‘cos after you

No one else can satisfy……


Bridge:

Don’t you know I’m losin’ my world as you go away

I’m dyin’ inside a little more each day

I can’t even find it in my heart to pray

I’m waiting til’ you’ll be here to stay


- Copyright 2005 Evelyn Tai -

Missing (10/11/4)

Verse 1:

Where are you now at 3 o’ clock at night

When my eyes can hardly open

But I won’t sleep till I’ve found what’s missing

What is it then that’s keeping me awake

An elusive sound that somehow might express my feelings


Chorus:

Comin’ home to an empty house

Lookin’ around, expectin’ to see you

Oh yeah… you had to go away for awhile…

Read the papers, have some ice-cream and cheese

And all the while I’m waiting for that missing something….

Just didn’t know then it was you


Verse 2:

Does someone matter once they’re out of your life

Does he live on in your dreams

Or do you miss him when you sleep at night

Do you still remember all the times and things you shared

Or do you put them in a box and bury it deep


Bridge:

The smell of death in my nostrils

This time you’re gone for good

And I realise again that the dead don’t matter….

’Cos life only has room for the living


- Copyright 2004 Evelyn Tai -


Note: This song was mostly about my dog who died, with a little bit of ideas regarding my now-ex-bf (whom I somehow associate with my dog, because the choice of getting a bf was related to my mom sort of asking 'Would you rather have a dog or a boyfriend?'. A dog, any day :-) )

In The End (18 & 30/9/4)

Stanza 1:

There’s a song playing in my head

There’s lots of things that still haven’t been said

And though I know that there’s no one to hear

Still it helps to think that you’re near


Stanza 2:

Falling asleep, the phone in my hand

Waiting for a call that never comes

Sometimes loneliness feels like a man

Who’s long since gone yet was my whole world once


Stanza 3:

Lying in bed, the tears trickling down

I wish I’d someone to call

But when I switch off the phone

I realize I’ve found that

In the end I need no one at all


- Copyright 2004 Evelyn Tai -

Our Last Days Together (11-13/9/4)

Verse:

I see you daily, yet there’s a fear inside of me that

One day it may be, that you will not be here for me ‘cos

I know that baby, we’ve got to chase our destinies

So guess I’m gonna be lonely for awhile


Chorus 1:

So walk with me now, the time we have is short

At least I’ll have some sun before the rain

So talk with me now, we may not have tomorrow

The thoughts of you will help to ease the pain


Chorus 2:

So hold me closely now, this time is all we have

At least I’ll have some warmth before the snow

So let me feel your love, the future’s so uncertain

I’ll treasure every moment till you go


Last chorus:

So walk with me now, the time we have is short

At least I’ll have some sun before the rain

So let me feel your love, the future’s so uncertain

I’ll keep your memory till we meet again


- Copyright 2004 Evelyn Tai -

All That’s Left (23/4/4)

Verse:

It’s been so long since we were happy

Still you say you love me

Sometimes I wonder if that’s really

The way things should be

But when I think of how I loved you

Mind and soul and body

I know I could not leave

Unless I left a part of me


Chorus:

Hanging on to a dream

Holding on to a memory

Hoping love can change reality

Nothing’s all that it seems

Your lover could be your enemy

And all that's left could be your fantasy


- Copyright 2004 Evelyn Tai -

I’ve Got You (10/11/3)

Verse:

If my boyfriend were to one day walk away

I could still carry on, I would still be okay

And if I lost all I owned and had no place to call home

I could still live my life

Knowing I would never be alone


Chorus:

‘Cos I’ve got you and you’ve got me

And everything else is unnecessary

Though all I have you’ve given me

Lord, you are sufficient for me



- Copyright 2003 Evelyn Tai -

Call Me Out On The Water (11/10/3)

Verse:

When the waves are high, and the storm’s all around

Call me out on the water

When the skies are bleak, and I’m feeling down

Call me out on the water

When I want to try, but I’m afraid to drown

When I wonder why I’m still being bound, Lord

Call me out on the water, Jesus

Call me out on the water


Prechorus:

Oh, Lord… I want to hear your call

For you, I wanna give my all


Chorus:

And so I choose to serve you Lord this day

I choose to sing your praise

I will be faithful come what may

I’ll run to win the race

And even when it seems you’ve failed

I’ll bless you for your grace

For higher than mine are your ways


(or maybe not... I think I need to edit this one...)


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

God, Come Back Into My Life (3 & 5/10/3)

Verse 1:

Lord here I stand, so far away… unworthy of your tears
For I have sinned again today.. and now dare not come near


Chorus:

If not for Jesus, who for me died, I would not come, I would not try
But now his blood gives me the right to say “God, come back into my life.”

Verse 2:

Lord here I am, a sinner redeemed…. You changed my life, you freed me from sin
Yet there’re still parts of the person I’ve been that keep me from being totally clean

Psalm 73 (10, 14 & 16/9/3)

Verse 1:

I was standing on the edge

My feet were slipping, I was almost gone

It seems I’ve got out of my cage

If I jump, will I be reborn?


Chorus:

Yet I know that I am still yours

And I know that my right hand’s in yours

And if I turn to you, you’ll keep on guiding me

Leading me to a glorious destiny


Verse 2:

Tasted the world now wanna spit it out

My life is full of regrets

Wish I could fly up to the clouds

Maybe there, I could forget


Bridge:

My mind is sick, my body’s weak

Got what it takes, but what I need

Is not of this world, is not of this place

‘Cos what I need most is the power of your grace


- Copyright 2003 Evelyn Tai -

Without Your Presence (28/4/3)

Verse:

I had everything that anybody could want

Was loved by all and the envy of some

But then I forgot where I had come from

And why I was here


Chorus:

And then my world started to fall apart

As all my gold turned into dross

And my dream bubbles burst into reality

‘Cos without your presence in my heart

My confidence and hope is lost

And vanished too has my sense of security



- Copyright 2003 Evelyn Tai -

Where Have All The Songs Gone (13/4/3)

Verse 1:

Sitting here in a dusty room

Looking out on the city

Sound of traffic from below

Everyody’s busy

Chorus:

And I’m wondering why there’re no more rainbows

And I’m dreaming of times when God seemed near

And I’m trying to get back to that heaven

Where my weary soul was born again

Where’s this cloud of gloom come from?

Where have all the songs gone..?


Verse 2:

The birds are silent in this place

Where work is yet man’s glory

But success here can lose its taste

When one sees its futility



- Copyright 2003 Evelyn Tai -

Living Grace (8/2/2)

Verse:

Shivering here, it’s cold inside

The fire’s burning low

Guilt-ridden fear, I cannot hide

Oh Spirit please don’t go


Prechorus:

My pride, my flesh .. it made me sin

Oh Lord alone I’ll never win

I can’t seem to escape this lie

Without you I’d be doomed to die


Chorus:

O’ Lord redeem your wandering child

O’ Shepherd save your silly lamb

Again and again dear Jesus rescue me

O’ King forgive your false subject

O’ Master receive your erring slave

Almighty living grace wash over me


- Copyright 2002 Evelyn Tai -

Touch Of Love (31/1/1-1/2/2)

Verse:

People walking, talking, bleeding

Saying, “This is life”

Children dying, crying, stealing

Learning to survive

That bitter man who killed his wife

Is still a human being

But will you turn away

Or will you help the suffering?


Chorus:

These are God’s hands

Feeding hungry mouths

These are God’s voices

Telling them we care

These are God’s servants

Sent to heal this wounded earth

Reaching out to them with a touch of love


- Copyright 2002 Evelyn Tai -

You Chose To Save

Lyrics and music: Evelyn Tai
Second verse : Ng Wah Lok


Verse 1:

If I could do it all right, If I could pray all night

And I never got into a fight

If all the words that I said, and all the thoughts in my head

Were ever blameless and free of pride

I may think I am kind, and be pure in my mind

But my heart keeps telling me…

By Your mercy and grace

I‘m a sinner You chose to save.


Chorus:

It’s the sinner who needs a Saviour

The loner who needs a friend

The sick who need a doctor

And the weak to know they can

It’s the broken heart crying out for love

Hoping someone hears

And it’s the people all around us

Who need Jesus’ love


Verse 2:

If I could fly to the stars, make a landing on Mars

Take a shuttle to the Milky Way

If I could fly to the moon, and still be home by noon

Then spend the evening watching penguins play

And my life is a dream, I could live like a king

But my heart keeps telling me…

By Your mercy and grace

I‘m a sinner You chose to save.


Bridge:

Now there’s a place that I call home

It’s in heaven beside His throne

Where He’ll welcome me into his family


Copyright 2001. Evelyn Tai

Jesus Looking Back At Me (before 20/6/2)

Verse 1:

So many friends that I have had

So many people that I’ve met

So many things I’ve done both good and bad


Verse 2:

But never did I think to meet a guy

Who lived what he believed was never afraid to try

And never did I think about how we’d say goodbye



... Yet now I’ve gotta say goodbye to you


Chorus:

But before I go, I just want you to know

What a friend you’ve been to me

‘Cos when I picture you and think of what you’d do

I know what I should be

Friend you taught me to care, to be kind, to be there

And when you smile I see

Jesus looking back at me




- Copyright 2002 Evelyn Tai -

I Just Want To Be Me (22/11/1)

I don’t want to be an eagle, to fly high in the sky
‘Cos I know I wouldn’t be happy unless serving God Most High

I don’t want to be a lion, lording it over my friends
‘Cos if I had a tail and paws, I couldn’t serve with my hands

I don’t want to be a squirrel, eating nuts all day
‘Cos it’s kind of hard if you’re a squirrel to show the world the way

I don’t want to be you either, ‘cos God has a plan for me
And the plans he has for me are just as good as those he has for thee (I think this stanza needs some editing...)

I don’t want to be superman, ‘cos even superman can fall
But if we trust in Jesus Christ he’ll always hear our call

I just want to be a servant of God, to know and do His will
And God has specially placed me here, so I’ll trust him and just be still
With the tools God has blessed me with, there’s no one more ideally suited for this
So I guess I just want to be me, ‘cos Jesus is my victory.


- Copyright 2001. Evelyn Tai -

One Last Goodbye (13/11/1)

Verse:

I said I’d be a man, I said I wouldn’t cry

I said you wouldn’t catch me

With a teardrop in my eye

But now I’m crying darlin’

Just like a little guy

And all it took from you

Was this one last goodbye


Chorus:

I’m gonna miss you dear, that’s all that I can say

‘Cos after all we’re just two friends

Who got a little carried away

And though you’ll go and I will stay

Tomorrow will be another day

But till in heaven again we meet

For you my dear, I’ll pray


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

The Way To Live ( 13/11/1)

Verse 1:

How do I dwell in your presence daily

How do I see your shekinah glory

How do I shine it as people look at me?


Verse 2:

How do I walk in your grace and mercy

How do I live my life in purity

What do I do to set the people free?


Chorus:

I read your word, day by day

I share your love, I always pray

That I may do your will Lord

In every way


Bridge:

Let me be holy for you, wholly for you

Consecrated to a cause that’s yours


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

Thank You Holy Ghost (12/11/1)

You are the source of hope and joy, Lord

You carry me through each day

You bring me through troubles, trials and tests

You keep me from going astray

You give me wisdom when I need it most

You tell me the answers so I cannot boast

Thank you for being with me Holy Ghost


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

Jesus You’re My Beat (9/11/1)

Verse:

Jesus you are always faithful… you always come through for me
And Lord, I’m ever so grateful… You take care of all my needs

Chorus:

Wherever I go, whoever I meet
Whatever I do, Jesus you’re my creed
You’re in my hands, you’re in my feet
You’re in my groove, Jesus you’re my beat


Copyright 2001. Evelyn Tai

Faithful Friend (4/11/1)

Verse 1:

As I close my eyes Lord

Will I see you again

Will you come to me

Like the evening rain

Can I know that you’ll be there for me

No matter what the day may bring

Will you be my constant guide

My faithful friend


Chorus:

Lord I don’t want someone who will pick me up

Who will help me off my knees

I want someone who will catch me before I fall

Can you do that Lord, can you shelter me

When hurricanes come my way

Will you be my Father God

My faithful friend



- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

Teach Me To Worship (21/10/1)

Verse 1:

Teach me to worship Lord
To live a life of praise
Give glory to your name
Be a witness to your grace
Help me God to live my life
In your presence day by day
Teach me Lord to worship
So I can show the way


Verse 2:

Teach me to worship Lord
To pray and seek your face
Give honour to your name
Be a blessing in this place
Help me God to live my life
In your presence day by day
Teach me Lord to worship
So I can show the way


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

Walking, Rejoicing (3/10/1)

Verse:

You put a new song in my heart today
As I pondered on your grace
But I was busy so I went my way
Yet I couldn’t stop my spirit from praise


Chorus:

So I walked along, singing this song,
Rejoicing in your love
So I walked along, singing this song,
Rejoicing in your peace
So I walked along, singing this song,
Rejoicing in my worth
So I walked along, singing this song,
Rejoicing in your goodness.


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

Come Lord (2/10/1)

Verse:

Lord my mind is wandering again

And my heart is trying to crawl back to my past

Though I try can’t seem to feel you

Lord there’s nothing more that I can do

So come Lord please and show yourself true


Chorus:

Come and fill my heart till there’s no room for more doubt

Come and fill my spirit till I’m just blown away

Lord make yourself manifest and then my soul will find rest

Lord I just yearn I long to know

You’re with me everywhere I go


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

The Flag (-/9/1 – 1/10/1)

The flag is raised, it’s still the same, but now it heralds a brand new reign
The star points the way to the Messiah, the crescent his glory now and forever

The flag is raised, it’s still the same, but now it heralds a brand new reign
The pure white cloth will never fade, blue is divinity, raised from the dead

The flag is raised, it’s still the same, but now it heralds a brand new reign
Red are the stripes and the blood that was spilt, to redeem humanity from hopeless guilt

The flag is raised, it’s still the same, but now it heralds a brand new reign
Gone is our past of sin and death, now we walk in his peace and rest


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

Someone Like Me (20/9/1)

Verse 1:

I was taking the highway that led to the grave

Couldn’t see far beyond my face

My life was a candle trying to burn

To stay alive in an airless tiny space


Verse 2:

Then out of the blue you rescued me

Brought me flickering into the air

There my light became a warming fire

So you sent me to hearts cold and bare


Chorus:

Someone like me

How could it be

That someone like me

Could ever satisfy thee

I’m totally unworthy, your servant to be

Yet somehow...somehow

Somehow you’ve chosen me


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

Thank You (19/9/1)

Thank you for life, Lord

Thank you for breath

Thank you for a voice to sing your praise

Thank you for love, Lord

Thank you for faith

Thank you for a mind to know your grace


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

Tell The World (17/9/1)

Verse:

How could anyone fail to praise you

To let one moment pass without extolling your name

To let one person walk away, still searching

Never having heard that you came


Chorus:

So I’ll tell the world about you

I will let the people know

That my Lord is great and mighty

And he loves each person so

Then your praise will ring out gladly

Here and e’en across the sea

Then your kingdom will extend all around

As far as the eye can see


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

The Cross (16/9/1, edited 5-7-8)

What power had the cross?
How could it have such a force?
When lives are changed is it really the cause?
Did just believing make gold out of dross?

I thought of this one day and wondered how it could be
So I asked God and this is what he told me
“It was just a tree but love made it holy.”
The blood of the man hung there for all the world to see.”

The love of His Father
The love of His friends
The love of the Son who chose to be sent
A love full of power
To be strong as a man
A love that will never end


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

Move Lord (2001 - but edited 13/9/7)

Verse 1:

Another child was born today

Into an unhappy home

And another man just walked away

He set his heart to roam

People now have lost the way

Everything’s styrofoam….

As I sit and pen my thoughts in a poem


Chorus:

Move Lord, let them see your hand

In a dying world, help us to stand

With you as our God, we will take this land

They will bear your name

Women, children and men


Verse 2:

Another widow cried today – she’s never felt more alone

As another soldier sails away to face the great unknown

People now have gone astray – everyone’s got hearts of stone

As I sit and pen my thoughts in a poem


Bridge:

Planes are crashing, and ashes fly

Buildings tumble, and children die

Beggars starve as we pass on by

And God sees it all with tears and a sigh


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -


Note: Ok, this one has a melody I'm satisfied with... but also not recorded yet, sorry :-)

Love Song (23/8/1)

Verse 1:

I love you in the morning

When the stars go into hiding

And the moon begins to take

Its daily siesta as I wake


Verse 2:

And I love you Lord at midday

When the sun beats down so harshly

Forcing weary men to seek the shade

As evening they await


Verse 3:

And at sunset Lord I love you

As the sky reflects your glory

Remembering how you blessed me through the day

I love you Lord

Between each moment

Between each breath of time

But most of all

I love you Lord today


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai-

Chosen (21/8/1)

Verse 1:

I’d prayed and tried so hard

Kept searching in the dark

I'd wept and cried so many tears

My days just felt like years


Verse 2:

My world was bleak and grey

Til You came to light my way

Cos You gently picked me from the fold

And called me as Your own…


Chorus:

I’m Chosen, You redeemed me from the grave

I’m Chosen, a new lease of life you gave

Hope for the future, and joy for the journey

Unmerited favour on me


Bridge:

In my Father’s arms, I’m safe from harm, I’m His favoured son

My joy is sweet, My life’s complete, I'm the chosen one …



-Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai-


Note: Ok, this is a pretty important song for me, and it'll take some time to explain it....

1. For about a year, I'd been faithfully praying and reading my bible every day, and couldn't feel anything at all; you know how it is, you KNOW God listens, but he keeps really silent.... *ok, so add in some crying before God too (feeling ignored is frustrating ;-))*

2. Then on 19th August 2001 (which also happens to be my mom's birthday), I was leading the tambourine dancers in church during worship, and at the end of worship, my senior pastor suddenly said he had a prophecy for me. I was very surprised.... and it was a great prophecy, full of warnings of danger (which I ignored and had to pay for in later years, although that's another story), and the hope of a spirit-filled destiny. It wasn't just the content of the prophecy, though; the whole point of it was that GOD HAD NOTICED ME! That it wasn't wasted, all the prayers and tears; he HAD heard me, and this was his way of showing it.

3. One last thing the pastor said - he asked if I were studying in the Science stream, and I said yes. And then he asked if I wanted to be a doctor, and I assented, and he said that he 'saw' me as a doctor. I was just 16 then, and struggling with my Science subjects like Add Maths and Physics... I'd barely scraped through my mid-term exams, and kept toying with the idea of dropping out of school. But after that assurance, I was filled with confidence for every exam, even up to the point where I was supposed to come back to school to pick up my STPM results; there was no doubt in my mind that it would be good news, because God had given his promise; I WOULD be a doctor.

And so I wrote the song, Chosen, to express all these thoughts; that God had noticed me, and given me a future, although I really wasn't the most perfect girl around (there were other girls in my church whom I felt God would like better; the ones where, standing beside them, I feel shy because they seem so pure and beautiful compared to myself). The truth is, God chose EACH of us by sending Jesus to die for us on the cross, and when we choose him in return, by choosing to live for him, he gives us a great destiny. God chose us first; but we choose whether we want to follow him, to live as God's children. We choose to be CHOSEN.

-Evelyn-

Let Him Go (27-28/7/1)

Verse 1:

You write him long letters, one every day
Though you know he won’t answer you write them anyway
Why doesn’t he reply you used to wonder
But you’re starting to realize that it doesn’t matter


Chorus:

Don’t let him know how much you miss him
Don’t give him a hint that your heart is breaking
Just let him go whatever you’re feeling
‘Cos love’s about waiting, understanding, releasing


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -
Verse 2:

You dial his number a dozen times an hour, on your fantasy phone ‘cos you know he ain’t home
He’s always busy, yeah – his work ain’t easy, but can’t he find time, to pen a few lines…?

On The Roll Of A Dice (26/7/1)

Verse 1:

Everybody’s busy, they’re havin a ball..
And you’re wondering if they’ve missed you at all
The coke’s just come, and they’re passing it around
Will you join them then, or will you just hit the town?


Bridge:

The path is narrow and the climb is steep
The water’s rising and it’s getting too deep
You’ve gotta choose, whose boat you’ll use, ‘fore you find yourself heading on a hell-bound cruise


Chorus:

Dices rolling, life keeps going, take your pick, small or big
No use crying, no one’s buying, you choose your creed, nothing else to it
All the people you met, all the lives you led, won’t matter at all when it comes down to that
‘Cos at the end of the line, when you’ve run out of time, and you’re standing at the gate; well, hell – it’s too late….


Verse 2:

You’ve got a friend in the house, and there’s no one at home
Just the two of you together, all alone
The dog’s being quiet ‘cos you gave him a bone
Now it’s up to you, so what’cha gonna do?


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -


Note: I like this one. It’s supposed to rhyme ‘cos parts are supposed to be rapped, just that I can’t decide which parts, so have never put it to music… haven’t found anything good enough… and I don’t even know what I imagine it to sound like, apart from the rap…

Close To Jesus (24-25/7/1)

Verse:

Lord sometimes when I pray, you seem so far away

And I don’t know just what to say, but I keep on anyway

So I will come back each day, and at your feet I will stay

Knowing for sure that with you I’ll be okay


Chorus:

I wanna walk in the light

Don’t wanna ever leave your side

But I know I will stray, don’t wanna walk away

Jesus break my legs, like a shepherd breaks a lamb’s

Keep me close to you, until the very end….



-Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai-

Note: Someone told me that shepherds break the lambs' legs so they don't run off and get hurt. I wonder now, whether it really IS true... ;-)

Living in Dreams (21/7/1)

Verse:

How did I fall in love?

How did you steal my heart?

Was still trying to understand this stuff

When you came and messed it all up

I still can’t be sure what I see in you

But I can’t get you off my mind

Now I’m starting to think that it’s not what it seems

But I’ll sleep on and live in my dreams…..


Chorus:

I live for the nights when my thoughts become real

When my world is not just my own fairy tale

You’re so far away and it’s been too many days

So I’ll close my eyes and let my mind tell sweet lies …



-Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai-

The First Thing On My Mind (19/7/1)

Verse 1:

Would it be alright with you Lord

If I didn’t say a word

If I just sat at your feet

Watching you with eyes of love

Would you mind if I just came here so I could be with you

To have you near would be my dream come true


Chorus:

Upon wakening in the morning

You’re the first thing on my mind

And I smile as I look forward

To another day with you

You direct my steps you guide me Lord

You’re faithful every time

You’re with me Lord no matter what I do


Verse 2:

Lord I want so much to find you

Listen to my heart you’ll see

Every time I pray or seek your face

To know you’re here with me

Lord I don’t deserve such wondrous grace

To have you by my side

So Jesus Lord in you I will abide



- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

The Greatest Joy (11/7/1)

Verse:

So many things I want in life

So many things I’d like to be

So many people to meet

So many places to see

But among all these to plant the seed

Of him who died so I could be freed

In needy hearts would be the greatest joy to me


Chorus:

I want to serve you Lord each day

To do your will in every way

I want to speak your praise in everything I say

In the fire, in the flame

In the sun and in the rain

I won’t be scared, I won’t be ashamed

I’ll preach your name


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

Defenses

Who can see and not feel hopeless?
Who can hear and not lose heart?
Who can think and keep on living?
Knowing the truth is covered in bloog?

Well, not I, so I didn’t want to know, didn’t want to waste my tears
Tried to close my eyes and ears; to strengthen my defenses
But Jesus made me open them, and here’s the reason he gave…
He said ‘If you’re going to be my hands and feet – you’re going to need your senses.’


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

Christian Living (10/7/1)

Verse:

They asked me what I’d do

What was being a Christian they hadn’t a clue

I smiled and looked them straight in the eye

And then I said “Well listen, and I’ll tell you”

Chorus:

And I said....

I’m gonna climb every mountain

I’m gonna swim every sea

I’m gonna do the impossible

‘Cos I’ve got Jesus in me

- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

Hope, Joy, Passion (3/7/1)

Verse 1:

Lord I don’t know which road to take now, I don’t know which way to turn
I don’t even know where my life is heading – I’ve got too many lessons not learnt
I’m cruising along on this highway of life/trials seeking someone to give me directions
I’m asking you Lord to guide me through the miles, give me hope, give me joy, give me passion

Chorus:

Jesus help me to do your will, to obey without hesitation
To hear your voice when you call my name no matter what the situation
Lord I want to serve you with every breath that I have, I want to win souls for your kingdom
But Lord I want most your spirit in me, to walk in love and compassion

Verse 2:

I know you’re a God who cares about me, I know you’ve a plan for my life
I know that you died to see me set free – to be worthy of that I must strive


- Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai -

To Do Your Will (21-23/6/1)

Verse 1:

Lord I’m trying, but somehow I keep falling

Breaks my heart Lord, why am I so weak?

Why can’t I make it on my own?

Why must I keep disappointing you?

I guess I really should’ve known...

I can’t win this fight alone.....


Chorus:

I need you in my life so I won’t wander from the path

I need you in my heart so I will keep myself for you

I need you in my world so I will stand for you

Guard my words and speak the truth

So I will glorify your name


Bridge:

Lord I ask for your spirit, I want to be filled

Jesus anoint me to do your will....



-Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai-


Note: I like the chorus (and I don't always like my melodies), but this is another song that needs more work, I think :-)

It’s Only About You (21/2/1)

Verse 1:

Another prayer answered, another gift granted

More blessings from above, more proof of your love

So many good things in my life and I owe them all to you

But if this all was profitless

I would still have worshipped you


Chorus:

For you died for me, you cried for me

And you lived your life for me

And I love you for the love you showed

On the cross at Calvary

It’s not the things you’ve done, it’s not the miracles

It’s not the wonders in my life

It’s just the dying on the cross

Showing how much you love me


Verse 2:

When trials and tribulations come

I know they’re just to try me

When I’m drifting in a sea of endless tests

When plans go wrong and things turn bad

No matter how hard I try

I realise it’s not about what I do; it’s only about you


-Copyright 2001 Evelyn Tai-


Note: I first started writing songs when I wrote this one. I was worship leading for CF (christian fellowship), and I wanted a song that expressed the thoughts in this one... but there wasn't any song, so I decided to write it myself :-)

Another note: This is the first song, and the rest in this blog are also uploaded in chronological order, with the date they were written (except for those where I jotted them down on scraps of paper and forgot to date them :-)).